My Horoscope

Free Sample Astro Identity Reading from Astrology.com

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MERCURY IN LIBRA--Mercury in the signs gives clues to the kinds of concerns that occupy your mind, and reveals your psychological approach to making decisions and conveying your ideas to others. In Libra, it indicates a mind that is primarily concerned with psychology and the well-being of mankind. You are likely to want to work with others, and could seek your career in fields such as philosophy, astrology, public relations, sociology, theology, and law. You will seek harmony and justice. You like to associate with others who have refined minds, good manners, and honest reputations.

VENUS IN SCORPIO--Venus in the signs indicates how you express your emotions in personal relationships and signifies your attitude toward personal possessions, creature comforts, and your aesthetic and social values. In Scorpio, the emotions and sexual desires can be strong and passionate, jealous and secretive, with much pride in sex and romance. You can take your romances too personally and too seriously, but you give much in emotional expression and expect much in return. Your artistic tastes are likely to turn to the dramatic and sensational. You are highly sensitive to others, and may be psychic. You will keep your personal pride and emotional dignity against all odds, sometimes appearing cold and remote. You need to watch out for tendencies to control others in close personal relationships.
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The Venus in Scorpio is interesting. "You will keep your personal pride and emotional dignity against all odds, sometimes appearing cold and remote." I wonder if that has anything to do with a comment I made in a previous post...

"I will stay self-sufficient and self-contained. I prefer it that way. I will keep my purity of spirit---untainted by compromising myself by being true to other people's views rather than my own."

It says "You can take your romances too personally and too seriously, but you give much in emotional expression and expect much in return," which I suppose is true.

Someone named Becky addressed me on Apostates blog: "It’s just not worth waiting for the most special person you’ve ever met. Sex is fun, but it’s not a magical experience. It doesn’t change your state of being, or make you mature or anything else. It’s just fucking. It can be a wonderfully intimate experience, and emotional of course. I have cried when making love before. But most of the time it is just fucking, and sometimes it’s crap whether or not you are in a loving relationship."

I am not waiting for the most special person I have ever met. (Actually, the most special person I have ever met is my sister and that would just be icky.) As for sex not being magical... I'm a witch. Everything is magic. Every day you live, every moment you are alive and aware changes your state of being. I don't expect sex to make me or anyone else more mature. I am mature enough for myself for right now anyway. So, you can tell I don't give much of what Becky has to say much credence. Now, I know Apostate has said that "Religious attitudes toward sexuality fuck people up. This is more or less fact," and she may be right. But I am going to make this argument anyway.

I am a spiritual person; I don't believe that our actions, our words, or our thoughts are especially finite. Energy simple transforms, it doesn't ever really end. It may not be worth it to others to abstain from physically intimate relationships that are emotionally lacking. I'm not waiting for the most special person I have ever met; I'm simply waiting for someone I have a spiritual affinity, someone I love and trust implicity (without reservations).

I am typically alone in my life; when I am with others I am a strongly pack-oriented person. I don't do middle ground particularly well; either you are someone I will have a relationship with for the rest of my life or I am completely uninterested and you are not worth remembering. This applies to friends as well as romantic interests. So, romantic partners will either receive the full force of my secret, strongly passionate romantic side or I won't remember your name---and you won't be a romantic partner if I can't or won't remember your name. (Those sorts of relationships are disrespectful to both people involved. Now that is not a standard I expect everyone else to believe in, but it is one I believe in very strongly.)

I am adept at being by myself; sometimes I am better at being alone than I am at anything else. I'm not usually lonely and even when I am---even during my most desperately lonely moments---I still will choose my own company to poor company and shoddy relationships.

That is my choice. If it isn't right for you and your life that is just fine. Make your own damn choices for yourself and I will be over here making my own choices for myself.

Bah humbug.